Avoidance proposal

It is October 1st and I still haven't handed in my thesis proposal. I am trying a new self-imposed deadline. Should I tell you what it is? Will that make me do it lest I have to actually articulate my sorry-ass excuses, such as I had to work 27 hours that one week or I went away somewhere or I couldn't turn off the old you tube, therefore embarrassing myself into finishing the damned thing?

It is October 22nd. 2007.

Meanwhile, I have been reading Into the Wild, which J-Lo (yes, the multi-talented starlet) loaned to me. There are some interesting things coming out of this book. One of them is a quotation by someone called Anthony Storr. It's kind of long so I won't copy it here, but the gist of it is this: a child who expresses avoidance behaviour might develop into an adult who needs to find order and purpose in life that isn't totally dependent on interpersonal relationships. I thought this was really interesting because I've always thought of avoidance as just, well, something to be avoided, that it really served no purpose and one should always work to address things, and people, directly. But to look at it this way is a new concept to me. Maybe someone who avoids things actually just gets more understanding out of solitude. I should remember that the next time I get all confrontational with a certain significant other...

...and with myself! In avoiding my adviser, I find order and purpose in my own thoughts on my proposal. Hmm. No, you shouldn't buy that entirely, but there is a little truth to it.